Karma

I've never been one to believe in "Karma." What goes around, comes around, ya know... But I now believe that things that I have done in the past, have now caught up with me. I had something that I truly felt was special, but I ruined it. I place the blame solely on myself, and I deserve every ounce of pain that I feel. The worse pain of all is not being able to ask for forgiveness, because I don't even have the guts to confess my wrong doings. Now I have a decision to make... Confess and ask for forgiveness, or continue to hold everything in and know that I was the coward, and I was the selfish one. For me, it seems like a lose, lose situation. I know if I confess, I won't be forgiven... It's not in her nature. And if I don't, sure I may salvage what relationship we have left, but I'll still have everything weighing on my mind. I know that the "right thing" to do would be to tell her. But I can't...