The LONG Downward Spiral...

...You know what I'm talking about. That state of mind where nothing feels like it's going right, and feels like it never will. I think I've found a way to battle it. I think you finally just have to settle for mediocrity. Life's not perfect... People have been saying that since you were a little kid. I personally like, "Life's a bitch, and then you die." So oftenly used by my father. Life is a bitch. It's a nasty, dirty, disgruntled bitch, that doesn't get along with you. Point is... you're never going to get EXACTLY what you want. No matter how bad you want it. The sooner you figure that out, and learn to deal with it, the better. Due to many past and recent occurances, I've figured that out. I now know that I'm going to just have to make do and learn to settle. There's no use fighting so hard for things, because you're eventually going to lose it, one way or another.

...well those are my drunken words for the night. I'm going to bed.. i have to wake up in 3.5 hours and go to the range to shoot my 9mm. God bless!