Quote from Swiss - "Why is it that a person can be so cruel to someone they love but never even sarcastic to a stranger?" End quote.

...Why is it that a person can love someone who is so cruel to them? No matter how cruel, they always come back for more. Now, is that love, or repetition? Are they just so accustomed to doing the same thing... being hurt, then trying to make amends? When will it stop... or will it? It's perfectly clear to see that it's a lost cause. Just let go....

Today sucked. I had to go to the dentist and get some fillings refilled. NOT FUN! My mouth was numb for hours. Now it's sore where they injected the anesthetic. Fun stuff! 133 days... I counted. Then I'm off. I'm a little excited, yet nervous at the same time. Anyways... This weekend... nothing set for sure yet. Nothing too exciting going on, never is though. I'll try to update a little more often, but I just never get around to it.

Alright... It's official, I'm now government property. I enlisted with the U.S. Army today. Right now, I'm only enlisted for 15 months, but I plan to enlist for another 2 years. So all and all, it will be about 3.5 years. I'm going in to be an MP (Military Police). Basic Training is 17 weeks, and is located at Fort Leonardwood, Missouri. I'M LEAVING ON JULY 7, 2OO4. That's my ship date. About 123 days from now. Thats about 4.5 months. Better live it up while I can.

Alright, well there's a lot to fill in for the last few days, but I doubt I'll get to all of it cuz I'm tired. As of recently, I have decided to join the Army. I've been thinking about it for a while, but not TOO seriously, up until the past month or so. Anyhoo... I told my dad all about it and he was totally cool, but my mom is kinda pissed off. Oh well, moms will be moms. Anyways, I've already filled out tons of paper work, and just took the ASVAB test today. I scored a 90, which is exceptionally well. I enlist on Tuesday, after my physical. I won't be leaving until July, at the earliest, but I could be here a lot later, so I'll be around for at LEAST 5 more months. Most of my family supports me, and pretty much all of my friends do, but they're a little worried. For those of you who don't know, I plan on going into infantry. I have my reasons, and that's all I need. I won't TOTALLY disappear when I join... I'm sure I'll be home for some hollidays, and I have 30 days of leave every year.

The last view days have been alright. I've pretty much been letting everyone know about what I'm doing, and my decisions and all of that. So, if you don't know, and you happen to read this... now you know. 5 months really isn't a whole lot of time, so hopefully I can enjoy as much of it as possible. And you can gurantee that I will be going to SLO this Summer, Fo Showdy!

Tonight was, ehh. Just hung out with the crew, and got some pizza at Zelda's. Kellen and I heard that Zelda's was really good, so we decided to give it a try, and it was nasty. I really don't know what all the hype was about it, because out of everyone, not one person liked it. I guess some people are just easily influenced by others. Then we hit up some party out in Greenhaven. Man, that was the place to be... if you're 40 or older! They were a cool group though, taking hits off of the hooka... winners! After that, we just went and kicked it at Nick's house for a bit, and did our usual thing... nothing! That pretty much sums things up for now. I'll let you know how the next few days go, if I happen to get around to it. PEACE!

Well, obviously my weekend wasn't the best. It was cool kicking it with WSP though. I figured a lot of shit out this weekend. I'll only be in W.Sac for 6 more months, MAX, then I'm off. It's for the best though, Im sure.

So far, 2004 has been a pretty rough and bumpy road, but I'm coping with it. I'm glad that I have the friends that I do. You guys help me through a lot, even when I don't ask for it.

Happy fucking Valentine's Day!! Whoever thought of this day can blow me! Why don't they have a holliday for single people, or people that get fucked over?

I'm sore as hell! Kel worked my ass off at the gym. Today was productive... for the most part. Work wasn't too bad. Thank you very much to the person who brough me food, it was very thoughtful, and much appreciated! Not much to do tonight. I think Kellen hurt his knee, so he was out of the picture. Nick, I'm sorry bro, I meant to call you back, but I got side tracked. Ended up driving around with the 75 for a bit. Not the most thrilling of things to do, but it kept me entertained for a little over an hour. Well, that about sums it up... late.

Went clubbin the other night instead of the kick back. It was awesome. There were so many people there! We had a pretty big group there. The last couple of days haven't been that great. I'm just trying to stay afloat right now.

AAHHH!! The kickback is off. Dammit, I was really looking forward to that. Now there isn't crap to do... I don't really have another $12, or else I'd prolly just go clubbin' with WSP again. I guess I'll have to improvise.

I haven't posted in the last couple of days, but they've basically sucked, so no need to post that shit.

Anyways... Tonight was awesome! Another WSP night out. Not much to do, so we decided to hit up the club, once again. Friday nights are a little slow til around 12-1ish, but we have to leave around 1 because somebody, KELLEN, takes a Saturday spanish class. Tonight was coo though. Nick had the Asian Persuation going on once again! There weren't really a lot of girls to dance with... or at least worth dancing with, but there was one blonde chick that was cute as hell, that was feelin' me. Finally got the courage up to talk to her, she was pretty nice too. She liked our group because "we weren't like the rest of the guys, trying to get up on hella girls." But Ya'll know me, I'm not one to really pursue anything, so the only thing that happened was a couple of glances and smiles throughout the night. I was really trying to build up the courage to talk to her more, but we had to bounce, so that ended that. Oh well, maybe she'll be back next week, then maybe I won't be such a wuss, haha.

Great weekend so far though, and it only gets better. Tomorrow is a little kick back. Sorry, I would invite you all, but it's not really a party, just a little kick back to break in Kevin and Logan's new pad. I'll let you know how that goes. But as for right now, it's 157 in the morning, and my ass needs to get to bed and get some sleep, cuz I still feel sick as f*ck.

Worst day/night of my life!

Started back at the gym today. It's about time! Now I just have to get used to going every day again. The day started off pretty bad. I didn't set my alarm clock for school. Luckily, Kellen Text Messaged me at 800 and woke my ass up. I missed my first class, but was just in time for my second. World Religions was pretty cool today. Biology was hella interesting... i now think twice about drinking ANY water, not just tap water. Oh well, can't live without it.

Went clubbin again last night. It was a lot more fun than friday night. there were a ton of people. Nick danced with a couple chicks... one of which was wasted! But its all good.

Here's a prime example of why I don't like West Sac... First I have a girlfriend, of which I have no clue who it is, then I'm with someone else, I guess just because I hang out with someone means they're my girlfriend, now I'm getting play from an asian chick... man, I'm a player and don't even know it!