Goodbye... For Now.

Since I'm leaving in a week, and I don't know how much time I'm going to have, or if I'll be able to update this, this is going to be my last post.

I know a lot of you still ask my "why?" and most of the time I don't really give a straight answer, or I completely avoid the question. Just know that this is what I want to do, and it's going to be great for me. I understand that some of you may not see it the way that I do, and don't want me to go, but I feel that this is what's best for me.

I have been blessed to have the friends that I have. I would be a lost little boy without you guys. I've got so much to say, I don't even know where to begin.

Kellen...
You have been nothing less than a brother to me. I've always felt as if I were a part of your family, and as if you were a part of mine. We have never had any major discrepancies. You've always been there for me, and had my back at any time. I know that you would never fall short of doing anything for me. It's almost scary to think where I might be if it weren't for you. Our friendship has been amazing. I've looked up to you in so many ways, and some times even envied you. You've been such a huge inspiration to me. This is hard bro... words fail to describe how much you mean to me. Where would it be if it weren't for the good ol' "buddy system," and Sammy pairing us up. I'll never forget those days... or any for that matter. I love you Kel.

Nick...
What more can I ask for in a best friend? You're always concerned about what's going on with me, or how I'm doing. You, as well, have always had my back. You've always added a spark to my life that nobody else could. You've always been there to make me laugh, or at least try, when I needed it the most. I know you would do anything for me, and support most any decision I make. I know I've given you a hard time, at times, but you know I only mean the best. Tough love! I love you bro.

WSP...
"We ride together, we die together... Bad Boyz for life!" That's where it all started. Who would have known that all 3 of us lived just right around the corner from each other, if it weren't for the soccer team. Now here we are, 3 best friends, who wouldn't have known each other, otherwise. I'm gonna miss you guys! You know it's only temporary though. I'm not going to find new best friends, or run away and get married and have a bunch of babies. I will be back. I'm still plannin' on rollin' 3 deep on the bikes when i get back. I know that I haven't said too much lately, but that's because it's been kinda hard for me. This came fast, and I'm not really ready to say goodbye.

Nika...
You have been an amazing friend. You are the most kind and sweet person that I know, and probably ever will. I really do feel as if we're always in the same boat. You've helped me through so many hard times. You've always been there when I needed someone to turn to, or a shoulder to lean on. I have always cherished our friendship. I am ashamed that I let something come between us at one time, and if I could change that, I would because I know that we missed out on so much. You are truly a beautiful person. Keep your head up, and always smile, and don't let people take you for granted. You deserve the best, and don't settle for anythingn less. Love you chica.

Hadley...
You've touched my life more than you will ever know. I've learned a lot from you and our relationship. Our relationship was nothing less than amazing. I can't say that I wouldn't change a thing, because you know that I would. You'll always hold a piece of my heart. Again, words fail to describe how much you've meant to me. I know that things have been rough for us, but maybe one day all of this pain and grief will have been worth it. You'll always have a friend in me, and you should never feel alone. Don't ever doubt yourself. You're on such a great track, and I know you're going on to great things. Keep it up. You'll always be "My Hadley." Love you Hadles.

The Crew...
Man, I miss those summers we shared together. Those truly were "the days." Nothing was more fun than running through the corn fields, or just kicking it at the hay bails, talking about life, and the future. You guys have touched my life the most, and have helped mold me into the person I am today, and the person I will become. I love you guys more than anything!

Gaby...
You know... I was thinking the other day about how we became such good friends, and I really couldn't pinpoint where it all began... it just happened. You stuck to me like glue. High school would have been hell without you. You've always been someone that I could talk to, about anything, and you would always give me your honest opinion. You've always been there for me, and have helped me through a lot. I don't know what I would have done without you. Love you Scaby!

Samantha...
I don't know how it happened, but you've become a really great friend, especially over the past couple of months. We've grown a lot and have come a long ways since sophmore year. I don't think there are 2 people that have such contrasting personalities, that get along so well. I'm glad that we've become such close friends. You're an awesome person to be around, and your wise cracks and sarcasm always brighten my day. Love ya kiddo!

Ty-G...
"Pen tap on that note!" Man, High school and especially soccer, wouldn't have been the same without you. You've been a great friend. You've always brought humor to most any occasion. I envy you... you go to an awesome college on the beach! You've been one of the best, and most fun friends throughout high school. Love ya Ty-Jigga!

Shawna...
Who are we going to have to vent to now? I know that we didn't really hang out that much, but you've still been an awesome friend. I've never felt that you've been less than honest with me about anything. I'm going to miss our conversations. Love ya shawndigga!

Scott...
"NINJA TURTLES BITCH!"...haha, I had to throw that in there. Man, I've probably known you longer than anybody... since what, about 5 years old?? I practically grew up playing soccer and going to middle school with you. I even got the chance to play against you in high school... We're not going to mention who won that game. Hopefully we'll get the chance to hoop it up at least one more time before I leave. If not, I'll be back on leave, so we'll have to hit up the courts then. Much love Scoop!

...Well, that's a lot of love I just gave out. If I didn't throw you up there, you know if you're worthy or not, and for those of you that I might not have mentioned, much love to y'all.

To everyone: Good luck with everything. I hope that I get the chance to say goodbye to everyone before I go. For those of you that don't know.. I leave July 7th. I will be writing home, so if you're lucky, maybe Kel and/or Nick will post something up on their blogs:
http://www.vernickulas.blogspot.com/
http://www.swiss916.blogspot.com/

Well, that's it for me. Hope to see y'all around before I leave. Wish me luck!

Annoyances

The absolute most annoying this, is when someone says they're going to call... then they don't, so you're sitting at home for hours on end waiting, then by the time they do call, it's too late to do anything, or you're way too tired. Yeah, that shit is annoying.

And so is pretty much everyone online at this time, so this is where I sign off. Late.

Couldn't ask for more.

Last night was great. I had most of my closest and dearest friends over, and a big portion of my family... and a few people that I've never even met before. It sucked that Kel and his family couldn't be there. Didn't have to worry about any drama, or people not getting along with one another. I did feel a little stressed at times because I felt like I had to be everywhere at once. It's all good though. It was nice to see everyone that showed up. And the people that didn't... I understand. Maybe we can do it one more time before I leave.

...As of lately, we have a new member to the family. I like to call him/her (not sure of the gender) Bob. If you stop by, Bob will most likely be around.

Go Figure

ALL girls lie!

...That was short-lived.

Yup

We lost tonight... AGAIN. Oh well. The Playoffs are the only thing that matters anyway, and we're taking it all baby! Ha Ha, right! I think we're 5-7 now. We went from 4-0, to 5-7... How does that work?

Things are going pretty swell lately. I can't really complain. I wish I were leaving at the end of Summer though. There's still a lot that I want to do. My original plans were to leave at the end of Summer, but it just didn't pan out that way.

Twas a good weekend

For those of you that didn't know... I was in the Nevada dessert with Kellen and his pops riding dirt bikes, since Thursday. This weekend was pretty awesome. On the way out to our camp site, we drive by a bombing range for the Top Gun Naval pilots and there were a few Jets flying around, so we decided to stop and take some pics and video of it all. We had one buzz us and fly right over the top of us. It was so friggin awesome! We did quite a bit of riding Friday... Rode into Ione, then on to the Ichthyasaurus (no clue how to spell that!) state park, then into Gabbs for lunch, and back to camp. Friday night was awesome yet friggin scary at the same time. We had a crazy lightning storm come through. It was hitting the mountain that we were camped on and all around us. Saturday was probably the most fun day. We took the road that goes to the Widow Maker, and came back out... That is by far the best part of the trip. Then out to a dry lake bed that stretches for miles. We got some great video. Then on the way back to camp, Kellen's dad decides he wants to ride up to the "call box" which is the highest peak by our camp. Never again will I go up that death trap! No problems, other than my throttle on my bike gave out, and I had to ride a couple miles into camp at about 5-15 mph, then up a hill at about 2 mph.. it was fun!

Anyways... here I am, back in West Sac for the remainder of my 17 days. Woo Hoo!

So I did it...

Yeah, I did it. Definitely not in the best way possible. OK, so you can pretty much say that I bitched out. Go figure.

And the Pistons win

In light of recent events (the pistons winning the nba championship) only one conclusion can be drawn... and that is, someone from the NBA had read my previous post and got nervous. They knew I was on to them.

The giant was slain, the Lakers lost... I guess this means I'll still watch NBA basketball for years to come. Damn it sure feels good to see the Lakers lose. Now I wonder how many Piston fans will come out of the woodwork next year. As for me, I'll remain faithful to Sac. Go Kings!

Better now than never...

What have I got to lose?

In a bit of a Pickle...

OK.. so if you've got something that you want to tell someone, but you don't want to mess things up.. what do you do? I mean, at this point, is it even worth saying anything? Hmm....

Technical Difficulties...

My blog has been having some issues lately, so some of you might have seen the same post, posted multiple times. I don't know what the deal is. It's not me, I'm not crazy, I swear.

I don't get it!

People who mess with other people's cars are PUSSIES! If you've got a problem, then confront it like a man, not a little bitch! If anyone knows anything about little faggots busting the windows out of cars, let me know.

Also... If anyone knows somebody that drives a white Honda Civic, with a body kit and lowered, with black hub caps, let me know who they are. Or if you know who I'm talking about or who is involved tell them that there's only 3 of us, but we've got more balls than them and all of their friends and we're willing to settle this shit by any means.

...The joys and pleasures of living in West Sac!

It's all about the Benjamins!

I hate to break it to some of you guys, but... the NBA is rigged. This may not come as a shock to some of you, but to those of you who don't believe it, are just in denial. I too was in denial til I was about 17. Let me just point out some of the OBVIOUS facts...

1.) Karl Malone & Gary Payton are two future Hall of Fame players, both of which have never won an NBA championship, and are coming to an end of their NBA careers. These guys are old, but they still have a lot of game left in them, and today are still rated as above average players, even at their age. How do they somehow BOTH end up on the Lakers?... Well they can't both win a championship on separate teams, retire, and go out on top.

2.) The NBA is a business, and what is the goal of a business? To make money! What is going to make more money... A 4 game Lakers sweep over the pistons, or a 6 or 7 game Lakers victory over a pistons? It doesn't take a genious to figure out that the more games played, the more money made. (Maybe that could be the NBA's new slogan "The more games played, the more money made." it even rhymes.) So it's not skill, stellar defense, or even dumb luck that allows the Pistons to beat the Lakers. It's the NBA prolonging the series so they can make more money. Everybody knows that the Pistons don't even come close to matching up with the Lakers.

3.) Which cities generate more fans?...Highly populated, big interest cities, or Lower populated, low interest cities? Large cities such as L.A. or Chicago generate more fans which means more money. Why do you think the TWolves fell off? They couldn't even fill their arena during playoffs. Phil Jackson, coach of both Chicago Bulls and Los Angeles Lakers, both huge cities, both of which generated arena packing crowds every night. Do you really think Phil Jackson would have won an NBA championship with the same team, but coming out of a city like Minneapolis? I don't think so. Why do you think Philadelphia lost in the NBA finals, then fell off completely the next year, with relatively the same team? Hmmm... makes ya think, don't it?

...and that's just 3, I can go on, and on, and on for days.

I like it like that, she workin' that back, I dunno how to act...

Tomorrow's agenda (today's since its 1245am)... PT at 7am, come home, wash my car, take a shower, grab some lunch before work, head out to work, come home, and call it a day! I doubt that will work out like i plan it... most likely go to PT, come home and sleep til about 1, then get up and go to work. That's more of my style.

I will be officially unemployed as of Friday June 11, 2004. About a month of doing absolutely nothing.. how friggin thrilling. Maybe I'll take a few out of towners, who knows. Wanna come?? Desert trip coming up in about a week and a half.. can't wait! I know a lot of you guys are hoping that I fall and off of my dirt bike, and break a leg, or arm or something, that way I wouldn't have to leave... but I assure you, I am one of the Desert Supreme Riders, so that won't be happening. LOL.

I guess I better turn in for the night. OUT!

It's time for a change...

I changed this up a little bit... looks a little better, and you can add comments now.. how spiffy! haha. Really though, I just got bored and had nothing better to do, so this killed about 10 minutes of my time.

We lost again tonight... that drops us to 5-5. Oh well. It's all about the playoffs.. thats where it really matters. This week at work is gonna suck... an hour longer, and no tv...CRAP! Its almost over tho. ONE MORE MONTH!

One month from tomorrow. Damn, I'm gonna miss y'all. I will be back though, ya best believe. 3.5 years... Bring it on! When I think about it now.. it seemed like high school flew by, and that was 4 years. I still don't know what I'm going to do without you bro. Man, do something to piss me off, and make me hate you, so I don't have to worry about it, lol. Nah, I'm just playin... I'm comin back, and we're all movin out together, and getting Buells! And thats a promise dammit! And Nick better be ridin' next to us on his Ninja. Lets just win the lotto so we can buy 3 houses and live next door to each other, and kick back and chill for the rest of our lives like we do now. Sounds like a plan to me!

Alright, just to let y'all know... I wasn't pissed of, or angry, or anything in my last post. Several people have said that it seemed to come off that way.. I was not.

OK, I've made some mistakes, I will be the first to admit that. One was a HUGE mistake. Nobody is perfect, and everyone makes mistakes. If you want to judge me for that, then fine, but take a look at yourself first.

Again, nothing to do today or tonight. Some good fights on tonight tho... Juan Lazcano, Oscar De La Hoya, and Bernard Hopkins are all fighting tonight, so I'll probably be at my sister's tonight.

So another weekend approaches, and yet there is nothing to do. Go figure. Who knows what we're gonna do tonight. Last night was LAME. Nick and myself were supposed to go clubbing with Adele and Lauren at club Detour in Vacaville. When we got there, we found out that we were seriously, the ONLY 2 white guys there. The rest were ALL asian, with the exception of one black guy. Needless to say, we bounced up outta there. Just kicked back for the rest of the night. Well, I'm off to figure out what adventurous excitement awaits me.

Tonight was rough. Some things still hurt. Got some bad news today... All I can do is pray for the best, and be there as much as possible.

I'm turning into an ass, or so I'm told. I just can't win!