Off to Korea

Well... I didn't really get the chance to say goodbye or anything... my computer crashed before I could post anything. Anyways... I'm sitting here at the USO in Los Angeles awaiting my flight at around 8 this evening. It is now 910 in the morning... I have a long wait. The past 2 weeks have been nice. I didn't get the chance to hang out with everyone that I wish I could have, but I guess that's just how it goes. Hopefully everyone will still stay in touch with me. Leaving was hard this morning. I haven't really thought about it too much before this morning, but I'm going to be gone for a year, possibly more. I didn't really want to think about it too much, but now here I am, already in L.A. on my way to Korea. Luckily the lady at the airport was very nice and she allowed everyone to come to the gate with me before I boarded my flight. Unfortunately I had to say my goodbyes fairly quickly because they were boarding the plane fast. I didn't think I would take it so hard, but it sucked... I'm not good with goodbyes.

Of course it was hard to say goodbye to my family... even my dad was choked up, which I've only seen maybe once in my life. Then my brothers, nick and kellen. damn that sux. Why can't it just be, "later" and everything is cool, and I leave? Damn, I miss you guys already. And Hadley... ARGH! That was rough. I love you so much! This is going to be tough, but I think we can do it.

Anyways... enough with all of the crappy stuff. Good news is... It will be nothing like it was in basic training, where they kept me tied down all of the time, and had hardly any communication with the outside world. Hopefully I'll be able to get a laptop within a couple of weeks of getting there, and an internet provider, so I can keep in touch with everyone. And I can use the phone whenever I please. Everything will be cool. It'll be just like a normal life... just without everyone there with me. I still wish I knew my unit and whether or not it's a garrison unit or not. I'm hoping that it is.

Anyways... hopefully I'll get a computer soon after I get there, and internet, and all that good stuff. That way I can still post and keep everyone updated on all of the fun I'm having in Korea. Well... That's all for now. Maybe I'll post something later, before I take off. If not, then I'll get around to it soon enough. Take care!

One week down, one to go.

Well, my first week of leave has come and gone, like it was nothing. I feel like I have only been home for only a couple of days. It's been nice though. I haven't done nearly as much as I thought I was going to do... as I planned on doing. It's all good though. I've been fairly sick for about 3 weeks now. It's frustrating. I think I'm getting better now. Of all of the things I have done though, I've found that doing nothing but sitting around and being lazy has been the best time of all. Either just kicking back at kel's, playing ps2 for hours, or just laying back watching the boob tube with My Hadley. I've had such a good time doing that, I almost don't want to get off my lazy butt and actually do something.

I leave in one week from today. I feel very awkward about it. I'm extremely nervous about the flight over there... It's about a 12 hour flight, and almost all of it is over the ocean. Me and airplanes don't get along too well. I'm pretty anxious to see what the Army has to offer me. I can't wait to get to Korea and get started with everything. I'm going to take Korean classes and learn how to speak Korean. That ought to be interesting. All of my college is free, so that's a bonus. The worst part is, I have to leave home again. This time for a lot longer. It was almost unbearable being away from home the first time. I'll be a lot more relaxed though... No Drill Sergeants up my ass 24/7. It feels like I haven't really left home. Everything is just like it was when I left... with the exception of a few things.

Today was nice, for the most part. I had originally planned on going duck hunting today, but I've worn myself down this past week, plus I'm sick, so I just didn't feel up to getting up at 2am. Instead, I ended up going to church with my hadley and her dad, but got a nasty head ache about half way through the service... that wasn't too fun. Then Hadley and myself went to quiznos for lunch, and just kicked back the rest of the day and did our lazy thing. Then to Kellen's. His mom made Taco Pizza for dinner! I love that stuff! From there, we just sat on our arses and played star wars all night long. Now here i am... sitting up, when i should be going to bed. I think thats enough for the night. I'll catch ya up again later.

Hey kid, who you lookin' at?
Why you standin' all up in my face like that?
You ain't never seen a baseball bat? A maniac knockin' on your babeball cap
You better step about ten paces back Or you'll be layin' where your shoe laces at
Go do what your momma told you And don't be actin' like a punk, thinkin' your a soldier
I see you got a cell phone, i got a number you can dial son, make it 911
Tell 'em stop at hef's house on the way kid Pick up some playmates but only if they naked
Don't know how you do in your city But 'round here we gettin' down to the nitty gritty
And i hate to put you out like that But you've been burnin' like a fire with a mouth like that

Lazy Days

Back in basic training, I would count down the days until I could come home on leave. There were so many things I was going to do and take care of before I leave again. I haven't even begun to do half of them. Pretty much everyone has school or work. There are so many things that i probably could be doing, but I just haven't found the gumption to get up and do them. Plus I've had a horrible sinus infection that I can't get rid of. Luckily Kellen has taken off Tuesdays and Thursdays, just to kick it with me, so that has kept those days fairly busy. The other days, I pretty much sit around and wait for someone to get home from school, or off of work. This weekend should be pretty busy though, and pretty much everyone has work off next week, so I'll finally have some more stuff to do.

Aside from all of that, I'm just glad to be home. At least I get to stay for Thanksgiving. A year in Korea won't be so bad. I get 30 days of leave every year, so I'll be home every now and then.
Time is going by so fast! I'm almost half way through my leave. 4 months in Missouri seemed like an eternity, but my 2 weeks here feel like nothing. I''m trying to make the best of it though. There's still a lot of people that I haven't got around to calling or hanging out with yet. Sorry about that... I'll try to get a hold of everyone before I go again. Well, I'm outskies... maybe I'll have another boring post for you to read later.

What it's like to walk in MY shoes

Since you want to read my blog, and get to know me, let me help you out...
One day you feel like you have everything. Couldn't ask for more. And on top of all that, you have the perfect girl. You are absolutely in love with this girl, and completely infatuated. You would do ANYTHING for her. You've never been closer to anyone in your entire life. Then one day you realize that something's not right... Things seem different. She seems distant. It's a scary feeling. Next thing you know, she tells you that you shouldn't be together anymore, and you're crushed, but you want to try to work it out. You want a new start. In the back of your mind you know there's another guy, but you have too much pride to admit that to yourself. Now she breaks it off with you, and you don't understand why... You were perfect for each other. Then you find out that she loves someone else, and you're crushed. It hits harder than a swift kick to the nuts. It's a pain you wouldn't wish upon anyone. Now your world is flipped upside down. All of the sudden you feel like you have nothing. Before, you knew what you wanted in life. Now you're confused. Everything seems like a dead end. Now for months, you get to feel worse than you've ever felt before, and wonder how you lost it all. You'll try to look for answers, but there aren't any. Now you have to sit back and watch her be with someone else. Ain't that about a bitch?

And the Truth Shall Set You Free

I don't think I've ever been more scared in my life. I'm so glad I got everything off of my chest, and now I don't have to sit and wonder about other things. I wasn't really shocked when I found out, more disappointed than anything. When I said what I had to say, I was trembling. I was so afraid of the response that I would get. We've been through way too much for things to get messed up. How awkward. I'm glad it's all said and done though.

I love you babe.

Guess Who's Back?

It is good to be home! 17 weeks of hell has come and gone. I am now officially an MP soldier. For those of you that don't know, I'm going to be stationed in Korea, at the 501st Military Intelligence Headquarters, Headquarters Detachment... Not exactly sure what I'll be doing yet... hopefully garrison.

Anyways...I have missed everyone so much. I met a couple cool guys there, but none of them are like the friends I have here. I leave on November 28, for Korea...hopefully i get the chance to hang out with everyone before I leave.

Things are a lot different now, than before I left. I've learned to appreciate things A LOT more. I've had quite a bit of time to think and collect myself in the past 4 months. Things are going very well. Friendships, relationships, life in general... all is well. It's pretty late, and I promised someone that I would get some rest, so I need to go to bed. I'll post up again when I'm refreshed. Take care. It is good to be back!!